I put some flowers on an unattended grave today.
Partly because doing so features in the book
"this book will change your life" by Ben Carey & Henrik Delehag
but also I think because I wanted to do something selfless. But then when is anything selfless when we are often driven to do it to make ourselves feel better?
To be honest I wanted to put some flowers on the grave of an old neighbour of ours, dad used to, and I guess I felt I should be keeping up the tradition. Finding the grave was impossible, so I lay some flowers on an unnamed grave and on my old maths teachers stone. Mark Stevenson.
Did I do it because I wish I could do something for Dad? I think so. I would like to have a place to go, at the moment his ashes are under the bed in the spare room. Yer because that was his favourite place ever! Soon he will be on the golf course on his favourite fairway. Much more dignified.
A place to go, to be near to him, to talk to him. We all need that Everyone needs that.